Hey....

ok, here's the latest update... Joshua is doing really well... he slept throught the night last night which was great b/c ray and I were both bvery tired. My first day of work went well... and joshua faired well with the babysitter.

We went for a walk today, which was kind of cold. but I bundled him up and once we got going it wasn't that bad... It was sunny out and I had to take advantage of it!

I went to MOPS today, it was depressing... They had a Women come in to talk about natural health, and I came away from the meeting feeling crappy instead of uplifted. I know that we need to know what we are doing or eating that is not right for us but, I think that she could have put a different spin on it. I am a bigger girl right.... so when I hear that your body stores toxicians in fat cells... that cause caner etc... I felt like there was a spot light on me.... not that I am the only bigger person there but you know? Anyway, I left feeling yucky - about the things ieat and about my self. I can choose to continue to feel that way, and have a pity party... I would love to do that but that's not going to get me anywhere... Hence the walk. I know that I need to make changes, and I want to - one step at a time.

So Joshua doing some neat things, he is saying "puppy", he is "hoarding" food, he'll take it from his tray and put it on his seat beside him... its weird. he is also dancing now... like this elmo toy he got for christmas (it throws it's hand in the air) ... it's totally cute....

Well Joshua is calling and so I must go.... did I mention after my walk I made some cookies...